He aint the leaving kind

Its official tuesdays absoultely suck! i hate them. I'm so stoked tuesday only happens once a week! haha really i do. But anyways. So steak dinner tonight was awesome thanks todd. and lets see on a down note im in such a bog right now and i am not seeing a way out anytime soon. i mean the two really good things in my life right now are both losing fights. one is preoccupied and the other is leaving, how cruddy is that? but oh well i guess its about time life started to suck again that was a fun month or so. All good things must come to an end.... right? but why? I'm not a fan of this saying. Id like something good to happen and stay that way. i guess im trying to hard to avoid what i know is going to happen haha. but i guess its time to tell this uphill fight goodbye, as much as i want to keep this up. its impossible like trying to catch the rain. but enough of the negative depressing crap. a bright spot is always around it seems. this bright spot, watching movies with amanda. Always puts me back in a great mood. also another thing that makes me feel good, my beard! its so nasty haha. i need to trim it, but what the heck i like the way it looks, it looks like... well not me and i like that. i think im going to go buy some rogain tomorrow and slap it on and try and grow a mustache! haha i know they are hidious but its not like it will affect me with the way things are going. dang look at me rant about my poor self haha this is what not playing sports does to me, i need something to consume my time and work only last 8 hours. Im thinking country music is a good route, so we'll see where that goes. but i do know one thing for sure, im not going to make the same stupid mistakes i usually make when im bored. Time for change and thats it, going to start being super productive. starting with cleaning the house tommorrow. and then the next day im going to start activly looking for an apartment, whether or not that means by myself! but this has gone on long enoujgh im starting to get tired so peace out suckaaaaaaaaaas.